Everything is affected by time. Days weeks years are cyclical ongoing, a person have and do not have time or we plan with time to ensure it is released, based on our linear perception of time. Life is born and dies, in and out of time. But what is time?
Time has historically been a fascinating theme so is not a new topic for research and it would be an endless project to describe time in general which is not the purpose of this thesis. What I would like to do is to examine a highly subjective time, a moment the artist Cézanne is dwelling at when he is painting. A specific now-time that Maurice Merleau-Ponty in his essay Cézannes Doubt claims is innovative and relate to Cézannes upbringing. What significant impact do childhood have on the ability to relate to a present moment as an adult? To find out, I have put Merleau-Ponty in dialogue with psychoanalyst Donald Woods Winnicott who argues that a specific experience (that happens now) is crucial for a child’s development and affect the capability to live creative later in life. The intent is to find a link between an early and mature experience of now, and to examine the qualities of this moment.
Merleau-Ponty and Winnicott talk about a now in similar ways and says for instance that it is empty, but not nothingness but consist of something that we cannot yet put into words. The overall aim of the text is to highlight this pre-verbal time. To focus on a situation here and now where an individual’s attitude of will is of more importance than intellectual formulation. My ambition is a try to show that creativity is a biological function for everyone to use and that experience itself teaches. That knowledge also is a non-knowing thing.